I’m sitting here.
Thinking, about you.
I’m thinking about you because of this song I’m listening to.
I miss you.
I love you.
I miss the way you kissed me, the way you held me so close to you, the way you looked in my eyes, how you knew everything about me, they way you held my hand, i miss everything about you.
You were my everything at the time, and honestly, I think you still are, but that I just can’t realize that you’re really not.
I don’t want you back because I know it would turn out just like it did the first 3 times.
Me and you are just not gonna ever be together. And that breaks my heart. But I’m gonna deal with that. Because I have to, to be able to make it through my days.
Okay, why am I lying?! You always ask me if I’m over you and I simply reply “yes”.
When I know that I’m NEVER gonna be over you but that’s just that and it’s not gonna change. I’m sorry. But it’s not.
I really wish you wouldn’t have treated me the way you did and I really wish I wouldn’t have let you treat me that way for so long and so many times. And so this is really both of our faults.
We’re just doing it to ourselves.
We both want to be with each other.
But we know that we can’t be because of the way you treat me and the way I let you treat me.
So, I’m not blaming everything on you, but I am saying that if you would have treated me right the first time, we would still be together and we’d probably have stayed together. But I’m NEVER going to be with you again. So, I NEED to get over you, but I can’t. And I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to do it. Because all you ever did was treat me bad and I put up with it, so really I should hate you, but I don’t. And I don’t know why I don’t.
But anyways. I love you with all my heart and I think you feel the same way about me.
Somedays, I wish I would have never met you because if I wouldn’t have, I wouldn’t be sitting here now, feeling this way. But I did meet you.. And then other days I give thanks to God for meeting you.
I love you! <3
forever&always in my heart.
even though we’ll forever be broken.
or do i?!